Monday, November 1, 2010

Listening

I'll wander away from Halloween in a moment now, after just a few more pictures to show you how much fun we had here in Taos. The crowds of kids always come out in the early afternoon, leaving the evening for the grownups to go out and play. We were out early, and back home for dinner, but I still donned my fabulous hat and my bonehead necklace. Heidi was a very popular little bee, and wanted nothing more than to snuggle with us on the couch last night. Those adoring kids wore her out.


I have to admit, we're really still enjoying Taos. Maybe we're stranded here, and maybe it's just a matter of perspective. These beautiful fall days are perfect for sitting in a sunny spot, and just listening quietly to whatever "comes through." We certainly don't have all the pieces to the puzzle yet, but little hints are managing to work their way to the surface. The trick is to shut up my own chatter long enough to hear them. 

I dreamed last night that I was trapped under our trailer, which had lost its footing and was sinking into the ground. There I was, with just enough room to breathe, wondering if anyone would ever find me. I woke up as I was digging my way out with my hands, and realizing that I could also simply open a window...

I have a feeling I should pay attention to this dream. Yes, I'm feeling a little bit "squeezed" by the smallness of the trailer, our financial situation, and the apparent lack of options at the moment. And true, I wonder if there's anyone "out there" who might help me. "Digging with my own hands" has always been my automatic response to tough spots in life. Coming from a family with a steel reinforced work ethic, I learned that when the going gets tough, a Miles Girl just "digs in" and works harder. But what if that's not the only way? What if there's a simpler, better, more effective way? What if, instead of clawing at the dirt to escape my own personal captivity, I simply open a window and climb out?

I'm no expert on dream analysis, but this one isn't too hard to figure out.  So, OK, I'm listening, even though I'm not sure who's doing the talking. I'm waiting for Further Instructions. Next message, please...




2 comments:

Levonne said...

Kim, I have to say again that I love your writing. I always start saying I don't have a lot of time for reading all the blogs I read but then I hang on your every word start to finish. I think you are right on with your dream analysis. It is terrific that you can enjoy Taos and that you get a new chance to review all that it is about for you at this time in your life. You can choose to do what you like with your lives. You are obviously receptive to the messages from outside and within. Take care my friend.

Joan Tucker said...

Kim, dream maybe suggests you turn round and see answers in a fresh way; maybe make a plan with a little of this and little of that.. no clear strategy just a flexible path.. small apt, house sit, rv.. in combination. Maybe someone would let you house sit a vacation home on the off season; travel a bit and write for a travel magazine and get paid??? You are a great writer.. who would pay for that??/ Hope all your dreams and hopes are realized. It is inspirational to read about your journey to seek a truer life. Best of luck.